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Another Night at Chill n’Fill: The Factory Worker, The Choice Maker, and The Value Builder

   It was Thursday night at Chill n’Fill, and I was three hours into my shift when the fluorescent lights started their familiar buzz-flicker routine that always gave me a headache by midnight. Another evening as chronicler of convenience store chaos and unwilling therapist to Alabama’s most colorful cast of late-night characters.
   Bob had outdone himself this week by transforming our one-eyed polar bear mascot into what he called “Thunderstorm Bear.” The massive creature stood sentinel beside our Chill n’Fill sign, overlooking the parking lot like a meteorological guardian. He now wore a cape made from a black trash bag, cotton ball clouds hot-glued to his head, and dangling silver tinsel meant to represent lightning bolts. Around his neck hung the usual chalkboard, today reading: “WEATHER THE STORM… WITH OUR ELECTRIC DEALS!” Bob had spent three days perfecting the look as a tribute to James Spann, Alabama’s legendary meteorologist, after watching him cover yet another severe weather outbreak on ABC 33/40.
   The bear’s transformation into a meteorological phenomenon was apparently part of Bob’s latest marketing scheme—”Atmospheric Retail Experience”—designed to honor Alabama’s most trusted weatherman while making customers feel empowered during storm season. So far, it had only succeeded in confusing our regular customers and causing one elderly man to ask if James Spann was personally predicting tornadoes for our snack aisles.
   The night had been relatively quiet until around 10:30 PM, when our ancient radio—which had an uncanny ability to sense what was coming—suddenly crackled to life with Bruce Springsteen’s “The River.” Moments later, the automatic doors slid open to reveal a man in his late forties, wearing a faded Carhartt jacket and jeans that had seen better decades. His hair was graying at the temples, and he had the weathered look of someone who’d spent significant time outdoors, though not necessarily by choice.
   He moved through the store with the measured pace of someone who’d learned patience the hard way, eventually making his way to the coffee station. As he filled a large cup with what we optimistically called “Dark Roast” but was really just coffee that had been sitting on the burner since the Biden administration, I noticed the careful way he counted out exact change from a worn leather wallet.
   He approached the counter with the quiet dignity of a man carrying invisible weight, setting down his coffee and asking for a pack of Camel Non-Filter cigarettes and a scratch-off lottery ticket.
       “Evening,” he said, his voice carrying the slight rasp of someone who’d spent years not talking much. “How’s your night going?”
    “Can’t complain,” I replied, scanning his items. “Well, I could, but it wouldn’t change anything. That’ll be $18.47.”
   He handed me exact change, then paused, glancing out the window at our Thunderstorm Bear standing guard beside the sign with its trash bag cape and cotton ball clouds. “That’s… quite a sight.”
       “Our manager’s latest artistic phase,” I explained. “Last week it was dressed as a Viking. Next week, who knows? Maybe a Renaissance painter or a mechanic.”
   He chuckled softly, the sound carrying more weight than humor. “Some days I miss the old job,” he said, almost to himself, then caught my questioning look. “Factory work. Twenty-three years at the steel plant. Some days I miss the structure, you know? Knowing exactly what shift you’re working, when breaks happen, when the whistle blows. Simple.”
   As Bruce Springsteen’s voice filled the store with his tale of lost dreams and changing times, a transition so perfectly timed it seemed orchestrated by the universe’s sense of irony… he continued. “Then I remember the disrespect. The way management would talk to us like we weren’t human. The way they’d change safety protocols to save money, disrespect our experience, treat our concerns like they didn’t matter.”
   I nodded, recognizing the tone of someone who needed to talk more than they needed a response. The night shift had taught me that sometimes being a good listener was more valuable than being a good conversationalist.
      “Plant closed eighteen months ago,” he said, unwrapping his scratch-off ticket with precision. “Moved operations to Mexico where they could pay workers a fraction of what we made. Lost my job, my insurance, my pension that I’d been paying into for over two decades. Everything I thought was secure.”
      “That’s rough,” I offered, meaning it. “What are you doing now?”
     “Some days better than others,” he replied, scratching off the silver coating with the edge of a quarter. “Working warehouse shifts when I can get them, some light construction when my back cooperates. It’s honest work, but it’s not the same. None of the benefits, none of the security.” He paused mid-scratch, staring at his ticket. “Well, I’ll be damned.”
      “What?” I asked, leaning forward to see.
    “Three hundred dollars,” he said quietly, holding up the ticket like he couldn’t quite believe it. “I actually won something.”
      “Holy shit—I mean, congratulations!” I caught myself, though he was already grinning.
    “You know what?” he said, sliding the ticket across the counter to me. “You take this. Cash it out.”
   I stared at him like he’d lost his mind. “Sir, I can’t take your winning ticket. That’s three hundred dollars.”
      “And I’m giving it to you,” he said firmly. “You listened to me ramble about my problems for twenty minutes without making me feel like a charity case. When’s the last time someone did that for you?”
    “But—”
      “No buts. Cash it out, keep the money. Consider it payment for being a decent human being in a world that’s running short on them.”
    I hesitated, then realized arguing would probably insult him more than accepting it. I processed the winning ticket through our lottery terminal, counted out three hundred dollars from the register, and handed it to him.
      “There you go,” I said. “Three hundred dollars.”
   He immediately pulled off two twenty-dollar bills from the stack and slid them back across the counter. “And that’s for you. A tip for good service.”
     “Sir, you don’t need to—”
       “I want to,” he said with that same quiet dignity. “Sometimes when life kicks you down, the universe sends you a small win. And sometimes that win is meant to be shared with someone who treated you right.”
   Springsteen’s voice filled the silence as he continued. “You know what the hardest part is? Not the money struggles or starting over at fifty-two. It’s the way people look at you when they find out you’re unemployed. Like it’s somehow your fault the company decided to chase cheaper labor.”
      “That’s not fair,” I said, the words slipping out before I could stop them. Six weeks at Chill n’Fill had eroded my filter for inappropriate comments.
   He looked up, surprised, then smiled… the first genuine smile I’d seen from him. “Fair? Not much about it is fair. But you learn what really matters when everything you thought was stable gets pulled out from under you. Community, respect, dignity… those aren’t tied to a paycheck, even though it feels like they are sometimes.”
   He opened his cigarettes, pulling one out but not lighting it. “Some days I miss the friendship among the people, the sense of purpose, building something that mattered. But then I remember how it felt to watch good workers get thrown aside like they were disposable. How it felt to realize that twenty-three years of loyalty meant nothing when the quarterly reports came in.”
   As Springsteen sang about working-class struggles, our displaced factory worker took a sip of his coffee and grimaced. “This coffee’s terrible, by the way.”
       “Yeah, it’s legendarily bad,” I agreed. “We should probably put a warning label on it.”
     “Still better than the break room coffee at the plant,” he said with a laugh. “That stuff could strip rust off steel beams. Amazing what you learn to be grateful for.”
   The conversation was interrupted by the familiar crackle of Bob’s voice over the PA system, the sound quality suggesting it was being transmitted through a combination of tin cans and wishful thinking.

“ATTENTION VALUED CHILL N’FILL CUSTOMER AND TEAM MEMBER!” Bob’s voice boomed at unnecessarily high volume. “THIS IS YOUR MANAGER BOB WITH AN IMPORTANT METEOROLOGICAL ANNOUNCEMENT! I’VE BEEN STUDYING ATMOSPHERIC PRESSURE AND ITS EFFECTS ON PURCHASING BEHAVIOR! THAT’S WHY I’VE INSTALLED A LIGHTNING SOUND EFFECT BUTTON BEHIND THE REGISTER! WHEN YOU HEAR THUNDER, YOU’LL KNOW IT’S TIME FOR ELECTRIC SAVINGS! ALSO, OUR THUNDERSTORM BEAR WILL BE DOING WEATHER PREDICTIONS EVERY HOUR ON THE HOUR! REMEMBER: EVERY STORM BRINGS OPPORTUNITIES FOR UMBRELLA SALES, WHICH WE DON’T ACTUALLY CARRY BUT THE METAPHOR STILL APPLIES TO OUR BEEF JERKY SELECTION! BOB OUT!”

   The system cut off with its usual feedback screech, leaving us in momentary silence except for Springsteen’s continued storytelling about economic hardship and resilience.
   My customer shook his head, chuckling. “Your boss sounds like he’s either a genius or completely insane.”
      “The jury’s still out,” I replied. “Though his thunder sound effects might actually work. Nothing sells beef jerky quite like the threat of an imaginary storm.”
    “Truth,” he agreed, then grew serious again. “You know what I learned inside? The difference between regret and remorse. Regret is wishing things had gone differently. Remorse is understanding the harm you caused and wanting to make it right.”
   He finished his coffee, wincing again at the taste. “Some days I miss the stability of factory work … the routine, the steady paycheck, even the structured community of the shop floor. But then I remember the disrespect, the way corporate treated us like numbers on a spreadsheet instead of people with families and bills.”
   As Springsteen faded into Bob Seger’s “Turn the Page” …the radio somehow sensing the perfect transition for his story, he continued. “The worst part wasn’t losing the job itself. It was realizing how little our years of service meant when it came time to make budget cuts. How easy it was for them to discard experienced workers and relocate to wherever labor was cheapest.”
       “Sounds like you learned something important though,” I observed.
     “Yeah,” he nodded. “I learned that dignity isn’t something they can take away from you, but it’s something you can give away. And I learned the difference between missing something and actually wanting it back.”
   He gathered his cigarettes and headed for the door, then turned back. “Thanks for listening. Most people, when they find out I lost my job, they either treat me like I must have done something wrong or they give me that pity look. You just treated me like a person.”
       “That’s because you are one,” I replied. “A person, I mean. Whatever happened, you’re still just a person trying to figure it out like everyone else.”
   He smiled again, that genuine expression that transformed his weathered features. “Your thunderstorm bear’s got nothing on you, kid. Take care.”
   As he left, Bob Seger’s raspy voice filled the store with lyrics about being on the road again, turning another page. I watched through the window as my customer lit his cigarette in the parking lot, taking a moment to look up at the stars before walking toward what I assumed was a long bus ride back to his small apartment across town.
   The peace lasted exactly twelve minutes before the radio, sensing what was approaching, shifted to Linkin Park’s “In the End” just as the automatic doors slid open. The woman who entered looked like she’d been personally wronged by the universe and was ready to file a formal complaint.
   She was maybe thirty-five, wearing yoga pants and a tank top that read “LIVE LAUGH LOVE” in faded letters that seemed to mock the current state of her existence. Her hair was pulled back in a messy bun held together by what appeared to be equal parts bobby pins and spite, and she had the hollow-eyed look of someone who’d been awake for too long dealing with problems that shouldn’t exist.
   She made a beeline for the energy drinks, grabbing two Monster cans like they were life preservers, then moved to the candy aisle where she began loading up on chocolate with the methodical efficiency of someone stockpiling for an emotional apocalypse.
   When she approached the counter, I could see the exhaustion radiating from her like heat waves off summer asphalt.
       “Rough night?” I asked, scanning her items… two energy drinks, four king-size Snickers, a bag of Sour Patch Kids, and a pack of gum.
     “Rough life,” she replied flatly. “My neighbor’s been blasting music since noon. Same three songs on repeat for eleven hours. Eleven. Hours. I’ve counted.”
       “That’s… impressive dedication to terrible music,” I offered.
     “Right?” She laughed, but it was the kind of laugh that was one step away from crying. “And when I went over to ask him to turn it down, politely, mind you—he acted like I was the crazy one. ‘It’s not even that loud,’ he says. ‘You need to chill out,’ he says.”
   I nodded sympathetically as Linkin Park’s intense vocals seemed to soundtrack her frustration perfectly.
      “Then my landlord calls to tell me the rent’s going up another hundred dollars next month because of ‘market adjustments.’ My car’s making this grinding noise that probably means I need new brakes I can’t afford. And my boss—” She stopped, shaking her head. “Sorry. You don’t need to hear all this.”
     “Actually, it’s fine,” I said, meaning it. “Sometimes you need to vent to a stranger at a gas station. That’s basically half my job description at this point.”
   She smiled for the first time since entering. “You know what the worst part is? I used to let stuff like this ruin my whole week. I’d stress about the neighbor, catastrophize about the rent, convince myself every car noise meant financial ruin. But I finally figured something out.”
      “What’s that?”
    “I understand that it’s a choice to let dumb stuff affect you,” she said, unwrapping one of the Snickers bars. “Like, my neighbor’s an inconsiderate jerk, but I can choose whether to let his music control my mood. The rent increase sucks, but I can choose whether to spend my energy panicking or figuring out solutions.”
   She took a bite of chocolate, chewing thoughtfully as Linkin Park continued their anthem about struggle and perseverance.
       “Doesn’t mean the problems go away,” she continued. “The music’s still loud, the rent’s still going up, my car still sounds like it’s dying. But I don’t have to let other people’s chaos become my chaos, you know?”
     “That’s actually pretty wise,” I replied. “Most people never figure that out.”
       “Took me thirty-five years and a lot of therapy,” she laughed. “Plus about a million times of letting stupid stuff ruin perfectly good days before I realized I was giving away my power to things that didn’t deserve it.”
   She gathered her emotional support snacks. “The neighbor can blast his terrible music all night if he wants. I’ve got noise-canceling headphones, energy drinks, and enough chocolate to fuel a small army. He’s not taking my peace—I’m keeping it.”
   As she headed for the door, she paused and looked back. “Your bear out there looks like he’s seen some storms.”
       “That’s the idea,” I replied. “Bob thinks it’ll make people feel empowered to weather life’s challenges through strategic snack purchases.”
    “You know what? It might actually work.” She grinned. “Sometimes you need a one-eyed thunderstorm bear to remind you that you’re tougher than whatever’s trying to knock you down.”
   And with that surprisingly uplifting observation, she walked out into the night, leaving me alone with my thoughts until the door chimed again twenty minutes later.
   The radio, anticipating what was coming, suddenly switched to AC/DC’s “Thunderstruck” just as the third customer of the evening entered. This guy looked like he’d stepped out of a magazine spread titled “Confidence: The Visual Guide.” Mid-thirties, well-groomed beard, wearing a button-down shirt that probably cost more than my weekly paycheck, and carrying himself with the kind of assured posture that suggested he’d never met a room he couldn’t command.
   He moved through the store like he owned it, scanning our selection of overpriced snacks with the analytical eye of someone conducting market research. When he reached the coffee station, he examined each pot like a sommelier evaluating wine vintages, ultimately selecting our “Premium Blend”—which was really just regular coffee in a pot with a fancier label.
   At the counter, he set down his coffee along with a protein bar, a bottle of water, and an energy drink. Everything about his selections screamed “I make good choices and can afford to prove it.”
       “How’s business tonight?” he asked, his tone suggesting genuine interest rather than mere politeness. “Seems pretty steady for a Thursday.”
     “Can’t complain,” I replied, scanning his items. “Well, I could, but complaining doesn’t increase profit margins. That’ll be $12.73.”
   He handed me a twenty without looking at the total. “You know what I’ve learned in business? When you’re confident in what you bring to the table, you don’t have to chase anyone to sit down and eat.”
   I paused mid-transaction, intrigued despite myself. “Come again?”
       “People think success is about convincing others of your worth,” he explained, leaning casually against the counter like we were having coffee at an upscale café instead of conducting a transaction under flickering fluorescent lights. “But that’s backwards thinking. When you know your value—really know it—people sense that. They come to you.”
   As AC/DC’s electrifying guitar riffs filled the air, my customer continued with the easy confidence of someone who’d clearly given this speech before, though it didn’t feel rehearsed—more like a philosophy he lived by.
       “Take my last job interview,” he said. “Marketing director position. Most people would go in there trying to sell themselves, talking about how much they want the job, how grateful they’d be for the opportunity. But I went in knowing exactly what I could deliver. Didn’t beg for anything. Just laid out what I’d accomplished, what I could bring to their company, and let them decide if they wanted what I was offering.”
     “Did you get it?” I asked, genuinely curious now.
       “Started Monday,” he grinned. “But here’s the thing—it wasn’t about arrogance or playing hard to get. It was about genuine confidence in my abilities. I’ve spent fifteen years building skills, delivering results, learning from failures. That experience isn’t negotiable. It’s not something I need to apologize for or downplay to make others comfortable.”
   He opened his protein bar with the kind of precise movements that suggested even his snacking was optimized. “Same principle applies everywhere. Dating, friendships, business deals. When you know what you bring to the table—when you’ve done the work to actually be valuable—you don’t have to chase anyone. Quality recognizes quality.”
   AC/DC’s powerful anthem provided the perfect backdrop as my customer took a sip of his coffee and nodded approvingly.
       “This is actually decent coffee for a gas station,” he observed. “See? You guys know your product is good. You’re not apologizing for charging premium prices or trying to convince me it’s gourmet. You just make solid coffee and let the quality speak for itself.”
     “I’ll be sure to tell Bob you said that,” I replied. “He’ll probably want to put your testimonial on our chalkboard next to the thunderstorm bear.”
   He laughed, the sound genuine and unforced. “The bear’s actually brilliant marketin